Better Caesar than Beethoven

I've been having check-ups and tests at the PGH to determine why my left ear ceased to function back when I was in Grade 3. Finally, after 7 years. Haha. Well, at least I just really want to find out what caused it (and make sure it won't affect my right ear or affect me in any other way that would prevent me from becoming a doctor. sayang kaya ang 7 years!). My parents want to find out if I can hear again. It's okay for me if I won't be able to just as long as no other part of my being would be affected. After all, after 7 years, I think I've developed much adaptation to accept and live with the fact that I'm half-deaf. Just like Ceasar.

But see, the doctors are thrilled with my case. I think if Dr. House would meet me, he'll find me interesting enough to cure (or not yet because apparently I haven't had any life threatening moments which I hope would stay that way). Why thrilled? Apparently, (warning: medical jargons are about to pop up) a profound and sudden hearing loss that passes the Calorics Test is not normal. Why? I have no freakin' idea. I guess first year medical students (that are not even in the medicine proper yet!) still do not possess the ability to determine what test results mean. Haha. Seriously. I guess we can only guess. But I really did try to understand the stupid graphs that the machine that did my tympanometry produced or the stupid signs and graph-like thingies that the doctor wrote during my speech audiometry. I tried. But failed miserably. Haha.

To get to the point, the doctors want a CT scan of my temporal lobe and they have decided to refer me to their, guess what, consultant (Consultants are, well, the doctors who have finished their residency, fellowship, etc. Its a long process so they're well experienced. :P). Apparently, my case is serious or interesting enough to be taken in by the condultant. (We're talking about UP doctors here! But I guess, a specialist would be able to give a better diagnosis.) I'm yet to have my CT scan and my rendezvous with the *tantananan!* consultant.

Their (the doctors who checked me) guess is that I may possibly have an inborn condition that manifests only after people grew up. And the guess came with the warning that my right ear might also have the condition which would make me fully deaf if I'm not careful.

To make matters worse, my mom informed me that our famly DOES have a history of such a condition that resluts into ears becoming deaf. So the guess misght actually be true. (House, where are you when people need you?!)

The news came like a "whoah!". I mean, I'd rather be off like Ceasar than Beethoven! (well, except for the talents and such. hehe.) Seriously, I'd kill myself if the world decides to deprive me of the ability to hear. At least, I know I won't be able to take it well. Please, God, help.

Haha. Soemtimes we take for granted things. I took for granted the fact that I'm half-deaf. I actually somehow liked it because it makes me unique. Now its something serious. Way beyond being uniqe.

I just wish I'm way way beyond becoming "special".

My Gastrocnemia is Hot.

Haha. Gastrocnemia ang tawag dun sa muscle na nakaumbok sa may leg mo. Yung matabang part. Yun. Sabi ng teacher ko kung gusto mo daw maging hot ang legs mo, dapat defined ang gastrocnemia mo. haha.

Kahapon, ang bastos ng dila ko. As in lantarang kung anu-anong phrases na mali ang wording kaya nagmumukhang iba yung meaning na lumalabas sa bibig ko kaya feeling ko andami kong na-offend. Hay nako. Bad tongue.

See, powerful ang words. Yung simpleng paggamit ko ng Taglish na sentences sa mga blog entries ko may implications sa akin at sa nagbabasa. Yung simpleng hoy nga lang pwedeng makapagpasaya, makapagpatawa o makapagpagalit sa isang tao eh. I once mentioned in one of my essays that I believe no matter how much actions can speek louder than words, words would hurt more than actions do.

Minsan lang talaga, ang hirap pigilin ng lumalabas sa bibig natin. Minsan pa compelled ka na ipagtanggol yung ibig mong sabihin. Pero baka lalo lang lumalala.

Haha. Akala mo ang seryoso ng nangyari sa akin eh no na parang napaaway ako and all that. di naman. Napansin ko lang.

Tsaka wala na aksi akong masabi. Believe me, ang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko sa imed at sa upmanila (like the fact that I have another crush that sings like, whoah. She should have won. Stupid judges. Pero class 2010 ata siya haha. so either 4 years ang tanda niya sakin o 6 years. but who cares?! Haven't I just said she's really pretty and she sings like an angel?!) at nakakapagod na rin siya. Pero madalas kasi, hindi masyadong malaki yung impact ng mga yun para matandaan ko at magawan ng blog entry pagdating ko dito sa qc ng saturday. Hindi ko na magawang matandaan pa ang mga ganung bagay. I still have Gastrocnemias, auxins, giberillins, Colegio Dental de Liceo de Manila, and cos (A+B) to remember!

Hay. How unfortunate but I still have to go back to the Insular Board of Health that was established through Act no. 157 and its members (both active and honorary).

UP Kami, San ka pa?!

Matatapang, Matatalino, Walang takot kahit kanino.

Late na to pero wala lang, nakakatuwa pa rin. :P

Congrats UP Pep Squad (2007 UAAP Samsung Cheerdance Competition Champions!)! Ang astig ng routine na yun! Pulido!

Isa pa ulit para sa sentenaryo!

Stand above the rest,

UP is the best!

On why to-do lists are on stat messages

fine. i really just wanted to post something relevant today other than mcsmall.

natatawa lang ako kasi kapag palagi akong nagoonline sa YM, may isa hanggang limang taong may to-do list bilang stat message. hindi ko alam kung uso yun o ano pero hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit nila pinopost. di naman makakaapekto sa ibang tao. o siguro reminder na rin para sa iba in case may nakalimutan silang gawin. o kaya naman isa yung polite way sa pagsabi na: "hoy, walangya ka, kita mo na ngang busy ako buzz ka pa ng buzz dyan! get a life! o kung ayaw mo, give me one wherein i won't fail to accomplish my academic requirements!" haha. o baka naman masaya lang talaga gawin. haha.

pero mukhang nagalit ata sakin yung mga tao. nung ginawa kong status message yung tanong ko nawala lahat ng to-do list nila eh. hehe. sorry

kidding aside, nakakalungkot din na makita ang mga ganung status message. lalo na kapag yung mga makikita mo, iba-iba. As in walang pareho kahit isa. makes you think, 'shet, parang kahpon lang, sabay-sabay kaming nagkacram ng str final paper at english write-ups.' ngayon, halos wala nang pakeelamanan. halos wala na ngang may alam kung ano ang ibig sabihin nung ginagawa nung isa and vice-versa.

may nagsabi sakin dati na ang true test ng bond o ng closeness ng dalawang taong taga-pisay na magkaibigan eh kapag nasa college na sila kung saan magkaiba sila ng course o kaya magkaiba talaga sila ng college. tapos kapag nagmeet sila, siyempre magkaiba na sila ng experiences. magkaiba na sila ng direksyon. dun matetest kung amidst the distance, may bond pa rin. lalu na akpag wala nang intersection ang mga bagay sa buhay niyo. kapag totally can't relate na ang isa sa isa. dun. dun masusubukan.

so 'bonded' pa ba kayo ng mga kaibigan mo? kung oo, congrats. kung hindi, sayang.

haha. akala mo walang point ang post na to no?! in your face! hahaha.