Finally, a post.

This semester proved to be a very CHALLENGING one for me.

The first few weeks of the semester immediately brought me wondering whether I should ontinue doing something I really like doing. I ended up deciding against it just to stand firm for the convictions I earlier made. I had to quit the culture com at a point where I was already tasked to lead the culture week (something I was really excited about) this coming feb. And I wouldn't probably go back anytime soon. Probably not even next year. But quitting didn't end the agony because I was led into doubting waht I did. It started a struggle which was both pathetic and painful.

That beame the reason why this semester is probably the ONLY point in my life when I actually had ZERO extra-curricular activities. I even stopped blogging, for crying out loud. Neither did I write even for leisure purposes. And that's weird and undoubtedly hard considering the fact that I believed these activities are what fuel me to continue studying.

But I guess, when what you think fuels you to d something else becomes the very thing that hinders you from doing so, you're forced to rethink of your priorities and see the bigger picture:

What am I here for?

And in the end, I figured I'm here to become a doctor so if I'm to prioritize it should be a no-brainer.

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I also figured that this is the semester is the first time I've really dedicated my time to studying, with eating and watching TV as the only activities I do to detox. Really. And my gades are no better. But that's because my subjects this sem are either too toxic when it comes to requirements, too hard for a normal human being, or both. I even think I have a great chance of dropping out of the CS this sem. I just really hope I'd make it with the GWA 2.0 requirement. (This means that the org chem exam should be created so that students would PASS, for crying out loud!)

I also realized that what I told Lovely might have been true. God wanted me to drop all those extra-curricular activities so that I'd still be able to maintain my schlarship.

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Well, at least the hell sem is ending. Goodbye 2,4-dinitrophenol and Grignard's reagent. :)