if people thought you were the devil
but you knew you were never the devil
yet they still call you the devil
and they tease you as the devil
and they mock you as the devil
and they laugh at you as if you are the devil
even though you are not the devil
and the whole world thinks you are the devil
and you hate it so much that you vowed not to be the devil
and made sure that for everything you do you will not become the devil
even for what you say, you made sure it is not of the devil's
for you never wanted to be the devil
you never liked being called the devil
and you cried a thousand times everytime you are mistaken to be the devil
because you never were the devil
yet that is not what they see, instead a devil
even when you changed names to prevent being mistaken as the devil
even when you changed everything around you to not anymore be called the devil
amidst all those you were still mistaken as the devil
and you hated, a thousand time more, being called the devil
because you knew you never were the devil
and you never will be the devil
because you hate everything about the devil
and you don't want to do, as much as possible, anything that would affiliate you to the devil
because you have that long history with the devil
and that anything that would make the situation graver is unbearable
but now that you are asked to play as Tom,
is it not just right for me to feel uncomfortable?
3.26.2007
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I'm so proud. 100% graduates. lahat kami magkakasama sa graduation. isang buong batch. astig.
haha. At ang boring daw ng batch namin. konti lang daw kasi problems eh. :)
so to the batch that was made to SHINE and made to SOAR, kudos!
Go Batch 2007!
haha. At ang boring daw ng batch namin. konti lang daw kasi problems eh. :)
so to the batch that was made to SHINE and made to SOAR, kudos!
Go Batch 2007!
3.05.2007
Alam mo ba ang ibig sabihin ng "frustration"?
the past weeks have proven to me what frustration really is. ang dami kong ninais na makuha at makamit na hindi ko naaninag kahit konti. ang dami kong pinaghirapan na hindi nabigyan ng tamang justification. may mga bagay na akal ko ayan na, pero hindi pala.
no, this is not an entry to rant about life, about pisay, about whatever because once, in my entire life, the frustations did not own me at all. i own them.
"If you can let go of it, you own it. If you can't let go of it, it owns you." - sir vlad
somehow, the pains, no matter how intense they were, mattered no more. there were no bruises, no scars, nothing.
para akong may shield. parang everytime na may bad news na dadating, everytime may frustration na bago, someone would whisper in my ears: "kaya mo yan."
thanks God. I love you so much.
no, this is not an entry to rant about life, about pisay, about whatever because once, in my entire life, the frustations did not own me at all. i own them.
"If you can let go of it, you own it. If you can't let go of it, it owns you." - sir vlad
somehow, the pains, no matter how intense they were, mattered no more. there were no bruises, no scars, nothing.
para akong may shield. parang everytime na may bad news na dadating, everytime may frustration na bago, someone would whisper in my ears: "kaya mo yan."
thanks God. I love you so much.
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my blog seems so quiet. unlike my previous one, where i would have at least one comment everytime i post, this one seems so barren. hay. ganun talaga yata ryan kapag TINAGGAL MO ANG TAGBOARD AT COMMENT OPTION NG BLOG MO.
haha. wala lang. i'm just not used to people not replying to what i say. and i'm not really regretting what i've done. (by the way, intentional ang pagtanggal ko ng tagboard at comment option ah). i just realized that by doing what i've done, i have removed other people's right to say what they have to say. in short, one way na ang bato ng kuro-kuro at pananaw sa snake pit na ito. and, it seems, well, somehow unfair.
pero bakit ba? nakakatrauma na rin kasi ang masyadong pagtanggap sa pananaw ng iba. minsan ang laki ng impluwensiya sayo, sa mga praan an madalas ay hindi nararamdaman o kahit alam man lamang ng nagbigay ng komento sa iyong sariling opinyon, na nabubulag ka sa kung ano nga pala ulit ang pinaninindigan mo. minsan kasi ikaw mismo, natatangalan nila ng karapatan na sabihin ang gusto mong sabihin at ipahayag sa mundong ito na malaya kang talaga.
at minsan naman rin, hindi mo lang talaga maamin na naduduwag ka sa kung anung pwedeng sabihin ng iba.
kaya oo, kung anuman sa dalawan yan ang dahilan, gusto ko na ganito na lang blog ko sa kasalukuyan, habang hindi pa nagiiba ang ihip ng hangin. mas gusto ko na lang na manatili itong tahimik. sumisigaw ng sariling pananaw, ngunit mag-isang naninindigan. walang kaaway. walang kakampi. mag-isa.
oo. namimiss ko na ang comments mo, ikaw na nagbabasa nito. sabagay, mukhang konti na lang naman kayo eh.
haha. wala lang. i'm just not used to people not replying to what i say. and i'm not really regretting what i've done. (by the way, intentional ang pagtanggal ko ng tagboard at comment option ah). i just realized that by doing what i've done, i have removed other people's right to say what they have to say. in short, one way na ang bato ng kuro-kuro at pananaw sa snake pit na ito. and, it seems, well, somehow unfair.
pero bakit ba? nakakatrauma na rin kasi ang masyadong pagtanggap sa pananaw ng iba. minsan ang laki ng impluwensiya sayo, sa mga praan an madalas ay hindi nararamdaman o kahit alam man lamang ng nagbigay ng komento sa iyong sariling opinyon, na nabubulag ka sa kung ano nga pala ulit ang pinaninindigan mo. minsan kasi ikaw mismo, natatangalan nila ng karapatan na sabihin ang gusto mong sabihin at ipahayag sa mundong ito na malaya kang talaga.
at minsan naman rin, hindi mo lang talaga maamin na naduduwag ka sa kung anung pwedeng sabihin ng iba.
kaya oo, kung anuman sa dalawan yan ang dahilan, gusto ko na ganito na lang blog ko sa kasalukuyan, habang hindi pa nagiiba ang ihip ng hangin. mas gusto ko na lang na manatili itong tahimik. sumisigaw ng sariling pananaw, ngunit mag-isang naninindigan. walang kaaway. walang kakampi. mag-isa.
oo. namimiss ko na ang comments mo, ikaw na nagbabasa nito. sabagay, mukhang konti na lang naman kayo eh.
