My mom wants to kill me

my tutor schedule starts next week and spans from monday to saturday. nope. hindi ako ang tinututoran, ako ang nagtututor. i have two tutees, MWF, and three tutees, TThS. Bwisit. Para kong may summer classes.And she still wants me to handle the quesci entrance and upcat review classes! As if may oras pa ko para masingit yun! grr..

it just irritates me that everything i planned to do during the summer prior to med school is NOT gonna happen. Gusto ko sana mag theater class. Kahit one time lang. Never ko nasubukan eh. I know I would regret not doing it when I grow up. Gusto ko rin mag-ILC pero no. Kelangan kasabay siya ng imed outing at kelangan sa Cebu siya gaganapin at kelangan wala akong pera papuntang Cebu! :( pero yun ok lang kasi pwede namang next summer na lang. sa baguio pa. Pero gusto ko rin kasi sana tapusin lahat ng sinimulan kong short stories at icompile sila sa matagal ko nang pinapangarap na self-published anthology. hahaha. ambisyoso. pero di nga.

Ayoko sana magtutor kasi gusto ko sana maenjoy yung posibleng huling summer ng buhay ko na hindi pa ko saturaed ng medicine. I wanted to formally let go of things that i would prefer to do rather than medicine per se. Like literature and theater. Let go meaning alam kong nagawa ko na siya to the fullest at hindi ko na kelangang i-regret na hindi yun yung pinili kong track. Let go meaning, finally, my heart would not long for such things anymore and that it may have room for me to love medicine.

Gusto ko namang mahalin ang trabaho ko no.

Pero kelangan ko rin yata kasi ng pera. Kaya ayan. Yung ka-cheesy-han na ginusto ko has to be sacrificed. Oh well.

Pero open pa rin ako for outings ah! creative naman ako gumawa ng excuse eh! Hehehehe. sabihin niyo lang kung kelan! :P