Astig. Tuwing dumadating kasi ang punto na nagbabagsakan ang exams ko, nagpapaka-GC talaga ako at nagcocompute ng grades kasi klangan kong malaman kung pano ako babawi para mamaintain ko an scholarship ko. ayoko naman kasing maging out-of-school youth. Kaya gumagawa ako ng target grade at wow grades. yung wow grades pangarap lang yun. para magawa kasi yun kelangan ko ng sobrang tataas na exams eh.
pero alam mo yung pakiramdam na kapag nakita mo yung grade mo nakapost sa bulletin board tapos hindi ka talaga makapaniwala at binabasa mo ng paulit-ulit yung student number mo para lang makasiguro na oo ikaw nga yun? wala lang. tatlong beses nangyari sakin yun sa tatlong subject. at nakakabilib na minsan talaga, kapag pinaghirapan mo, may bumbalik lalu pa't ang blessings ni God mas madalas na unexpected.
Salamat God! :)
10.15.2008
10.12.2008
Ooooppppsss!! Sori Snake Pit!! :P
My blog celebrated its 4th birthday a month ago. Pathetic. I was even too busy to remember! Hay.
Belated happy birthday Snake Pit! Waw 4 years! :P
Belated happy birthday Snake Pit! Waw 4 years! :P
Finally, a post.
This semester proved to be a very CHALLENGING one for me.
The first few weeks of the semester immediately brought me wondering whether I should ontinue doing something I really like doing. I ended up deciding against it just to stand firm for the convictions I earlier made. I had to quit the culture com at a point where I was already tasked to lead the culture week (something I was really excited about) this coming feb. And I wouldn't probably go back anytime soon. Probably not even next year. But quitting didn't end the agony because I was led into doubting waht I did. It started a struggle which was both pathetic and painful.
That beame the reason why this semester is probably the ONLY point in my life when I actually had ZERO extra-curricular activities. I even stopped blogging, for crying out loud. Neither did I write even for leisure purposes. And that's weird and undoubtedly hard considering the fact that I believed these activities are what fuel me to continue studying.
But I guess, when what you think fuels you to d something else becomes the very thing that hinders you from doing so, you're forced to rethink of your priorities and see the bigger picture:
What am I here for?
And in the end, I figured I'm here to become a doctor so if I'm to prioritize it should be a no-brainer.
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I also figured that this is the semester is the first time I've really dedicated my time to studying, with eating and watching TV as the only activities I do to detox. Really. And my gades are no better. But that's because my subjects this sem are either too toxic when it comes to requirements, too hard for a normal human being, or both. I even think I have a great chance of dropping out of the CS this sem. I just really hope I'd make it with the GWA 2.0 requirement. (This means that the org chem exam should be created so that students would PASS, for crying out loud!)
I also realized that what I told Lovely might have been true. God wanted me to drop all those extra-curricular activities so that I'd still be able to maintain my schlarship.
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Well, at least the hell sem is ending. Goodbye 2,4-dinitrophenol and Grignard's reagent. :)
The first few weeks of the semester immediately brought me wondering whether I should ontinue doing something I really like doing. I ended up deciding against it just to stand firm for the convictions I earlier made. I had to quit the culture com at a point where I was already tasked to lead the culture week (something I was really excited about) this coming feb. And I wouldn't probably go back anytime soon. Probably not even next year. But quitting didn't end the agony because I was led into doubting waht I did. It started a struggle which was both pathetic and painful.
That beame the reason why this semester is probably the ONLY point in my life when I actually had ZERO extra-curricular activities. I even stopped blogging, for crying out loud. Neither did I write even for leisure purposes. And that's weird and undoubtedly hard considering the fact that I believed these activities are what fuel me to continue studying.
But I guess, when what you think fuels you to d something else becomes the very thing that hinders you from doing so, you're forced to rethink of your priorities and see the bigger picture:
What am I here for?
And in the end, I figured I'm here to become a doctor so if I'm to prioritize it should be a no-brainer.
---***
I also figured that this is the semester is the first time I've really dedicated my time to studying, with eating and watching TV as the only activities I do to detox. Really. And my gades are no better. But that's because my subjects this sem are either too toxic when it comes to requirements, too hard for a normal human being, or both. I even think I have a great chance of dropping out of the CS this sem. I just really hope I'd make it with the GWA 2.0 requirement. (This means that the org chem exam should be created so that students would PASS, for crying out loud!)
I also realized that what I told Lovely might have been true. God wanted me to drop all those extra-curricular activities so that I'd still be able to maintain my schlarship.
---***
Well, at least the hell sem is ending. Goodbye 2,4-dinitrophenol and Grignard's reagent. :)
8.30.2008
oh don't get me wrong. i had a LOT to write about. but see, when you're suddenly filled with TOO much to do up to the point that you'd actually prefer 48-hour days just so you'd be able to do all the things you need to do, writing, no matter how passionate you are, drops out of your list of priorities.
and, no, it is not yet over. september just proved to me that i'm in a course derived from hell. kung wala lang talaga akong scholarship, okay lang eh. Pisay had taught me techniques and habits that will allow me to survive even without reviewing that much. pero hindi eh. kelangan ko ng pera pambayad ng dorm.
so this blog will be silenced for the next few weeks. after the busy-ness, I'd be certain to be back. hopefully, i'll live to tell the tale.
in the meantime, i'd recommend you read cheska's blog. i think she's starting to hone her skills to eventually match De Quiros's columns in the Inquirer. Goodluck to that. :)
and, no, it is not yet over. september just proved to me that i'm in a course derived from hell. kung wala lang talaga akong scholarship, okay lang eh. Pisay had taught me techniques and habits that will allow me to survive even without reviewing that much. pero hindi eh. kelangan ko ng pera pambayad ng dorm.
so this blog will be silenced for the next few weeks. after the busy-ness, I'd be certain to be back. hopefully, i'll live to tell the tale.
in the meantime, i'd recommend you read cheska's blog. i think she's starting to hone her skills to eventually match De Quiros's columns in the Inquirer. Goodluck to that. :)
