Ang masakit lagi ay kapag narealize mo na kung bakit may mali, bakit may hindi tumutugma sa dapat mangyari, at bakit parang nauuwi sa kawalang saysay mo ang mga bagay-bagay.
And then the only thing that probably answers the question hurts so much because it's so true.
I feel stuck right now. Not struggling. Just plain stuck. Yung tipong pagod na gumalaw. Nakakapagod na lahat eh. Sobra.
The moment I let go and finally walk and traverse a path is the moment i would be able to breathe one more time. Sa ngayon, ayan. Napapagod lang ako. Kakaisip. Kakahalukay sa isip ko bakit, paano, at kung dapat ba.
Shet. Shet.
Pasensya ka na kung wala kang magegets sa binabas mo, pero ganun naman di ba? Kapag di na kaya ng loob mo, dapat pinapalaya na lang. Para muling makahinga. At muling makapag-isip. Emotions are never good for the brain. They're not very good for blogging either. haha.
Namiss ko magblog. Pero kahit ito, nakakapagod na. Sana di dumating ang araw na di na makakakita ng kahit isang titik ang blog na to. Haha.
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6.19.2010
5.15.2010
For Presidential Spokesman Olivar: Arroyo is indecent, too. (Election Bitterness Post 10)
The problem with the palace is that they are always hypocritical.
In response to this news article: http://ph.news.yahoo.com/gma/20100515/tph-palace-reminds-aquino-60-did-not-vot-d6cd5cf.html
Saying that Aquino's snubbing of the administration's "efforts," especially that of refusing to swear in as president under Justice Corona is, yes, in a manner, legal but somehow disrespectful politically and culturally. But Olivar forgets that the very appointment of a new Chief Justice days after the elections and in a situation wherein the current Chief Justice is only retiring at a much much later date - ignoring the very tradition that the new president can appoint the new Chief Justice and that a smoother transition of government could have actually proceeded without the appointment - is also in itself, legal, but politically and culturally indecent as it created more barrier to the transition (being it is such a weird and unnecessary move from the president).
I don't trust Arroyo, sorry. And if I were Aquino, too, I'd really rather be sworn in by someone else and be extra careful of the "moves" the power-hungry Arroyo is doing in her last days as President. (Yes. Last days. Kasi baka sa susunod as Prime Minister na. hahaha)
In response to this news article: http://ph.news.yahoo.com/gma/20100515/tph-palace-reminds-aquino-60-did-not-vot-d6cd5cf.html
Saying that Aquino's snubbing of the administration's "efforts," especially that of refusing to swear in as president under Justice Corona is, yes, in a manner, legal but somehow disrespectful politically and culturally. But Olivar forgets that the very appointment of a new Chief Justice days after the elections and in a situation wherein the current Chief Justice is only retiring at a much much later date - ignoring the very tradition that the new president can appoint the new Chief Justice and that a smoother transition of government could have actually proceeded without the appointment - is also in itself, legal, but politically and culturally indecent as it created more barrier to the transition (being it is such a weird and unnecessary move from the president).
I don't trust Arroyo, sorry. And if I were Aquino, too, I'd really rather be sworn in by someone else and be extra careful of the "moves" the power-hungry Arroyo is doing in her last days as President. (Yes. Last days. Kasi baka sa susunod as Prime Minister na. hahaha)
5.07.2010
On Corruption: I will not vote for Noynoy 1 (Election Bitterness Post 9)
Naniniwala akong ang kawalan ng nagawa habang naka-upo sa pwesto ay isa ring uri ng korupsyon.
Dahil kung nakaupo ka sa isang posisyong binabayaran ng taong-bayan at hindi mo halos nagagampanan ang mga tungkulin mo dito ng buong-buo, eh di para ka na rin talagang kumukuha lang ng pera sa kaban ng bayan (i.e. yung sweldo mo) at ginagasta ito ng walang binabalik na kahit ano sa pinanggalingan nito.
Ang pinakaibig-sabihin ng korupsyon ay iyong paggasta ng pera ng taong bayan upang magamit sa mga pansariling interes. Kung tutuusin, kumuha ka lang ng maraming ballpen sa isang opisina ng pamahalaan upang iuwi sa iyong mga anak at magamit nila sa eskuwela ay isa nang mababang uri ng korupsyon - dahil ang ginamit pambili ng mga iyon ay buwis ng mamamayan at kinuha mo lang ito ng walang kapalit. Lalu pa naman marahil ang kumuha ka ng sweldo sa mga mamamayan pero ikaw mismo, wala kang ginagawa at hindi mo ganap na natugunan ang tungkulin mo bilang mambabatas. Eh di halos katumbas nun ang pagnanakaw - yun nga lang sa ganoong paraan, legal kang kumukuha ng pera sa taong bayan pero wala kang binabalik na kapalit nito.
Hindi kasi patas na ipangako niya sa iyong walang korupsyon samantalang ang mismong kawalan niya ng nagawa ay maaaring repleksyon ng isang mababang uri nito.
Given the benefit of the doubt, however, it will be good if he really can stay clean and not corrupt for the whole six years of his term. He may serve as a valiant inspiration, yes.
But does he have enough political will to persecute those people who will commit corruption?
Dahil kung nakaupo ka sa isang posisyong binabayaran ng taong-bayan at hindi mo halos nagagampanan ang mga tungkulin mo dito ng buong-buo, eh di para ka na rin talagang kumukuha lang ng pera sa kaban ng bayan (i.e. yung sweldo mo) at ginagasta ito ng walang binabalik na kahit ano sa pinanggalingan nito.
Ang pinakaibig-sabihin ng korupsyon ay iyong paggasta ng pera ng taong bayan upang magamit sa mga pansariling interes. Kung tutuusin, kumuha ka lang ng maraming ballpen sa isang opisina ng pamahalaan upang iuwi sa iyong mga anak at magamit nila sa eskuwela ay isa nang mababang uri ng korupsyon - dahil ang ginamit pambili ng mga iyon ay buwis ng mamamayan at kinuha mo lang ito ng walang kapalit. Lalu pa naman marahil ang kumuha ka ng sweldo sa mga mamamayan pero ikaw mismo, wala kang ginagawa at hindi mo ganap na natugunan ang tungkulin mo bilang mambabatas. Eh di halos katumbas nun ang pagnanakaw - yun nga lang sa ganoong paraan, legal kang kumukuha ng pera sa taong bayan pero wala kang binabalik na kapalit nito.
Hindi kasi patas na ipangako niya sa iyong walang korupsyon samantalang ang mismong kawalan niya ng nagawa ay maaaring repleksyon ng isang mababang uri nito.
Given the benefit of the doubt, however, it will be good if he really can stay clean and not corrupt for the whole six years of his term. He may serve as a valiant inspiration, yes.
But does he have enough political will to persecute those people who will commit corruption?
4.30.2010
Why GORDON SHOULD BE President 1 (Election Bitterness Post 8)
Seriously, i almost decided not to vote for him too "kasi nga hindi siya mananalo."
Pero yun yung problema eh. Either you are not voting for Gordon because you're voting for noynoy because you're emotionally attached to Cory or because you don't want Villar to win. And yes, if you're voting for either Villar or Gibo, you have to analyze character more (or analyze your sanity for that matter) for the former and analyze politics a little bit more for the latter. These two simply don't deserve it.
And yet, the only one who seems to be genuinely concerned - and by this have a clear platform and STAND on what he's gonna do - for our country is left to be, well, not voted because he would not win anyway.
There is something seriously flawed with that reasoning.
I will NOT VOTE for him because he will not win.
Isn't the mere act of not voting for someone the CAUSE of why he will lose? Then, how, for pete's sake, can you make that a reason for not voting. Are we now this stupid to not realize it's a paradox and more so be trapped by it??
I vote for the person who I know would do something when he's in that palace. I vote for the person not vowing to stop poverty but laying out platforms and concrete moves on how to do so. I vote not for the person who presents me with only a surname as his mere justification for winning but for the one who presents me with his vision.
My choice remains this. I don't care if my countrymen chooses otherwise. If they do, that just means they remain in the dark.
I refuse to not vote for change.
I don't care who wins.
What I care about is whether my vote is right or not.
I will vote for CHANGE. Sana kaya mo rin yun gawin. :)
Pero yun yung problema eh. Either you are not voting for Gordon because you're voting for noynoy because you're emotionally attached to Cory or because you don't want Villar to win. And yes, if you're voting for either Villar or Gibo, you have to analyze character more (or analyze your sanity for that matter) for the former and analyze politics a little bit more for the latter. These two simply don't deserve it.
And yet, the only one who seems to be genuinely concerned - and by this have a clear platform and STAND on what he's gonna do - for our country is left to be, well, not voted because he would not win anyway.
There is something seriously flawed with that reasoning.
I will NOT VOTE for him because he will not win.
Isn't the mere act of not voting for someone the CAUSE of why he will lose? Then, how, for pete's sake, can you make that a reason for not voting. Are we now this stupid to not realize it's a paradox and more so be trapped by it??
I vote for the person who I know would do something when he's in that palace. I vote for the person not vowing to stop poverty but laying out platforms and concrete moves on how to do so. I vote not for the person who presents me with only a surname as his mere justification for winning but for the one who presents me with his vision.
My choice remains this. I don't care if my countrymen chooses otherwise. If they do, that just means they remain in the dark.
I refuse to not vote for change.
I don't care who wins.
What I care about is whether my vote is right or not.
I will vote for CHANGE. Sana kaya mo rin yun gawin. :)
