The Three Metors/Earth-destroyers

I had a REALLY disturbing dream last night. Most of the time, I don't remember my dreams, no matter how good they were. But, see, this one's different because it struck me at the right place.

The story starts with me enjoying a carnival/fair/whatever-basta-may-mga-booths with friends ata. For some reason, I went outside and looked at the sky. I saw the moon, or what I thought was the moon. After like 20 seconds, it startled me that the moon was REALLY big. I told someone (can't remember who) about my startling observation. He ignored me because he too made another discovery: apparently, something bigger than my REALLY BIG moon can also be seen at the other direction. And guess what, a smaller version of that thing that looks like Jupiter up close which my friend discovered can also be seen beside it. Startled that there is no apparent hiatus about the three gigantic objects in the sky, we ran back to the fair to tell everyone.

And then all of a sudden I was in my house, watching news reports. After some showbiz news, which startled me at how three objects at the sky were not urgent enough to dismiss talking about showbiz personalities, a news report indicated that the three gigantic objects were in fact, REALLY big meteors crashing to Earth in a matter of minutes. The metors, apparently were not detected by NASA and they just, uhm, suddenly appeared. Amazing.

The rest, I forgot. I remember that two of the meteors crashed on Earth though and I was still alive. But when the third one crashed, there was just light. And the dream ended.

But see, the reason I was able to remember it was because all throughout the dream there was a feeling of extreme fear and regret. But I didn't regret that I would leave the Earth already. I did not fear that the death would hurt.

All I felt was regret that I was not able to confess that much often to help cleanse my sins, that I was such a sinner the other day, that I was not responsible enough to read my Bible, etc. I feared that I was just unworthy to die yet. I knew I wasn't prepared and that the three meteors really came in such a bad timing. I feared not being able to see Him because I deserve not to.

I woke up really scared. Oh yes, I REALLY felt relieved that it was just a dream because I knew I wasn't a good son.

I never knew that that was how it felt like to be so unprepared.

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the gospel today pertained to Jesus' baptism. wala lang. and the priest in our parish elaborated on how important this sacrament is. he also elaborated on what Catholic really means.

wala lang. matagal ko na rin kasing alam na ang ibig sabihin talaga ng "Catholic" ay "universal". so anyone is Catholic. at ngayon ko lang napagtanto na ang stupid ng pagtawag sa hindi Roman Catholics ng "Non-catholic" kasi imposible naman yun eh. universal nga tapos may hindi kasali, ang kulit ah! haha.