Lesions.

Natatawa ako sa fact na prior to medicine proper ang pagkakaintindi ko talaga sa salitang lesion ay hiwa. As in pagnahiwa ka ng kutsilyo, for example, meron kang lesion. Pero nagbago yan nung nagaral na kami ng neurology at, eventually, ng dermatology. The doctors started blurting out things referring to lesions of the different parts of the brain, etc. Now, that would have been fine until they started talking about lesions of the nerves and other parts of the brain thin enough that i am quite sure something close to a hiwa would cut it for good. At siyempre nagtaka rin naman ako kung bakit simpleng hiwa lang sa ilang gyrus (layman: part ng utak mo, as in yung mga kulubot)eh magdudulot na ng sobrang daming effect. I mean, that would have been a pretty deep cut. Pinalala pa yan ng fact na kahit maipit lang ng tumor, pwede ng magka-lesion! Sabi ko, aba walang hiya naman pala tong utak natin. sobrang fragile naman ata niya. naipit lang, nahiwa na?!

pero buti naman early on nasabi rin samin kagad na hindi hiwa lang ang lesion. It means damage. So if you have a lesion in your brain, you have a part that is damage. At kaya nga sa derma lessons namin ngayon, ultimong skin may lesion. Buti na lang alam ko na ang ibig sabihin ng lesion kung hindi magtataka ako kung bakit ultimong pimple considered as lesion of the skin eh hindi naman hiwa ang pimple. pimple nga eh! pimple!

What's the point? I had a tradition of blogging during my brithdays. Kahit anong topic. Usually tungkol sa coming of age (na favorite kontrahin ni Ian) at current dilemmas with friends, family, etc. Today is not my birthday anymore, which means something bad happened prior or after my bday (yikee issue! haha. don't ask. a lot of things made me upset which equaled the things that made me happy). But that's not the topic..

This post will be more of a rant. First, a rant on how the OSI curriculum would probably drain every ounce of energy left on my body everytime there'll be an exam. MIND YOU, there is an exam EVERY week. So I'm gonna die. yey! See, in UP Med's curriculum, everything is integrated so if you started studying about the brain, which we did a week ago, you're gonna study EVERYTHING about it - from its anatomy to its physiology AND histology, and even some of its clinical applications, which means the diseases and radiology (since you have to know how to interpret MRI's, CT scans, etc.). Hindi pa naman hardcore ang lalim nung pinag-aralan namin the past week and the amount of information would have been fine, but the need to integrate everything?! Grabe. When I was reviewing, I would constantly glance back to what I studied earlier and then try to remember the things I studied days ago.

Okay naman ang results. The almost-1-week-review (na never ko pang ginawa ever. ang pinakamalapit na ata dito ay yung tatlong araw akong nagreview for an exam - dalawang araw dun natulog lang ako...) paid off. Now, I'm never doing that again (unless, God forbid kelangan na naman...) kasi nauubos ang kaligayahan ko sa katawan pati pera ko sa bulsa kakabili ng kape at coke at mountain dew at cheesy beef ng 7-11.

Second, I think I have more things bothering me now than when I was in first year imed. Alam ko naghohomeostasis na naman ako kasi sandamukal na naman ang mga bagay na nagbago sa buhay ko (which includes family dynamics kasi nagtrabaho na ate ko, graduating na kuya ko, at si rizza all of a sudden nagdodorm na kasi sa UPLB na siya nagaaral). I understand that I'm resisting change. Pero pwede bang matapos na? Nasestress na ko eh. At unproductive stress siya. Dati sa imed, I would be able to write. Now, I don't have the time, energy, or imagination (inubos lahat ng neuro kakaimagin ko sa brain) left.

Third, people are changing. I know I haven't. Hindi ako ganung tao eh na biglang nagbabago (or siguro pwede rin pero I doubt it...). At least, I'm not aware of changing anything in me. So I guess, yung ibang tao nga sa imed ang nagbabago. Dahil ba sa presence ng lats? Sana naman positive ang changes...

Fourth, nung mga times na nagtetext si jhing at iba pang tao sakin na itext ko si ganito kasi birthday niya etc., sinusunod ko yun. Sabi ko kasi, iba na rin ang saya kapag maraming bumati sayo, kilala mo man o hindi. Nung birthday ko, salamat sa YFC at CYA, sandamukal ang bumati sakin to the point na palaging 7 messages received ako per half-hour at nagwawala na yung fone ko kasi daw inbox full na siya. Puro mga brothers and sisters pero marami hindi ko kilala. Natuwa ako. sobra. Lalu na kasi alam kong galing yun sa mga taong kilala ko at kinalat na birthday ko. At sobrang thankful naman ako.

Pero alam mo yung pakiramdam na kapag may nagtetext, nageexpect ka ng mga tao na magtetext sayo sa birthday mo pero hindi sa kanila galing yung text kundi mga taong hindi mo kilala pero nakaalala? Yung tipong every message na hindi magreregister mag-huhu u ka hoping na sila yun at nagiba lang sila ng number? Hay, sana talaga 12mn sila nagtext at hindi ko lang nareceive kasi naginbox full yung fone ko...




So ryan, sa buhay mo ngayon, where is the lesion?
what is the lesion?
and what can you do about the lesion?